Why am I lost?

While I was in college, in one of the class, my Tamil professor Dr. Arul Padmarajan was sharing his experience about going to a prison. He had written a song expressing the emotions of a prisoner. I was moved by the words of that song. The words of the song go as if the prisoner asks God “Am I the clay that slipped away from YOUR HANDS while making the pot? Am I the sheep that was lost from YOUR FLOCK” and so on.

(The song is originally in tamil and the meaning has been translated to English). It stimulated my thoughts so as to think- Why do people fall to mistakes when there is a God? Most of us may have the same question: If God really exists why does He not stop me from my mistakes? Why do I get lost in thoughts of filth, lust, jealousy, anger and so on? If I was made in God’s own image and if He was so good why should I possess these natures?

People say that God sends people as angels to prevent me from my mistakes. But there are times I do not listen to any of those preventive words from my parents, friends, well wishers etc. I fall into temptations and yield to mistakes – wrong affairs, falsehood, treachery, stealth, crime, extreme anger that sometimes intensifies even to the extent of murdering someone. Besides knowing it’s a mistake, all of us are not able to stop doing it. When caught by the world we feel neglected, ignored and subjected to hatred being termed as accused in some cases. Why do all these happen, if GOD exists? He did not create me to die or to allow me getting lost in my sins. If God is in control, why am I lost?

Jesus says “He that hath ears to hear let Him hear”: Matthew 11:15. He speaks to us and guides us every time, but we turn a deaf ear most of the time and are prone to mistakes. Very few choose to listen to Him because this path is too narrow. The Bible advices us in Matthew 7:13 “Enter through the narrow gate, for wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction and many enter through it”. Yes, God always gives an open choice. Choosing Him is not an act of compulsion. So having God in your life does not lead you to a life of restriction but to the way of life, made by your own choice.

He patiently waits for you to open your heart for Him. Even if you are a lost sheep, He is concerned about you and wants you back. Jesus says in Rev 3:20 “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me”. Whatever your past life was, whatever ways you were lost, He is willing to come and dwell within your hearts the moment you choose to listen to His voice.

But everywhere Jesus offers a choice. It is left to you to listen to Him and choose the right path. If not, He waits patiently for you to be back. But this doesn’t mean that He has left you to ruin. He always provides His grace to be with you to bring you back to Him. You may have made the most embarrassing of mistakes that you cannot reveal even to your close ones. You may be addicted to drugs, inappropriate websites, desire of flesh or a life of falsehood. You may be the part of clay that slipped the potter’s hands. But, my dear friend, the good news is He wants to save you from these. There is a beautiful song that goes as follows:

“Amazing grace, how sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me

I once was lost, but now am found

Was blind but now I see”

Yes it is true. If you are lost you need not be lost forever. If you are blindfolded you need not remain the same forever. You can be His and the best part is when you are back to Him, He doesn’t remember any longer your past mistakes. For the Bible says in Isaiah 43:25 “I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake and remembers your sins no more. You were lost because you somehow missed the narrow gate that leads to Him. You were lost because God was not your choice. But cheer up, Isaiah 43:18 says “Forget the former things, do not dwell in the past”. He is willing to accept you as His own, in whatever condition you return. He renews your life. He wants you to feel better and not to be rotten in the guilt of your former mistakes. You are no longer lost, you are found by Him that waited for you all these years. Have a blessed life.

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  1. srini vasan boopalan

    Is arul padma rajan is from arakonam